Winter’s Night Ride

Winter’s Night Ride

My saddle sits in the corner of the living room, resting from the evening's adventures. It is the color of ancient oaks that have lived to see hundreds of full winter moons pregnant with promise. It is a season of new and noble things. There is warmth between my legs moving with strength and elegance [...]

Real Comfort

I am always amazed when I go to bed troubled and wake up with the answers I was looking for. Usually in the form of a book. My higher power I refer to as Beloved...It’s much more pleasant to have a relationship with a Beloved than a God...God feels cold and all “up there somewhere”. [...]

Sun

Sun

The morning is beginning to paint the sky tangerine with sunlight. I had made it through the end of that day, now this day and the sun is rising. For those of us who live in the Midwest, the winter is cold without sunlight for a good portion of it. Sunlight is what I thrive [...]

White Knuckling

I was white knuckling it...bad. So bad, that I went to Adoration, stared at the Eucharist while telling God to fuck off for a good 60 minutes...well 30 of those minutes were telling God to fuck off, the other 30 was doodling in my journal. It wasn't a drink I needed, in fact, not drinking [...]

Slow Burn

"You're energy is so, so...up all up...you are go, go, go aren't you? You're a field of sunflowers that likes to touch the sky. You're like the top of the roller coaster, but you've got to watch it. When you burn out you crash hard don't you?" "Ugh...yessssss!" I said all high energy and happy. [...]